I’m glad to report that I’m getting better at managing my endometriosis. I’ve learnt about my triggers, which foods to avoid at which times of day and remedies that help when symptoms do flare up. I’m trying to rely less on painkillers but I know I always have access to them if I need them. I don’t need to struggle along if I’m in pain. But here’s the thing, sometimes it feels like I would prefer the pain.
That sounds a bit over dramatic, but hear me out. Pain sucks. That we can agree on. But if making the pain go away results in nausea, constipation, drowsiness, frustration and overall general weepiness, is it always worth it? A day of these symptoms is hard enough, but several days? A whole week? How much can one person take?
I really struggled with my first period after starting investigations for endometriosis. I had different medications to contend with and I didn’t really know what they were all for. I was exhausted all the time, it was difficult to keep my eyes open. My tummy hurt from being so constipated and I just wanted to cry. But I wasn’t having any pain in my hips or lower back, for the first time in weeks.
As my period ended and I gradually reduced the medication I was taking, I started to feel better and more like my old self. Then I had a nasty flare up which reminded me just how crucial pain killers are. Yes it sucks going to bed early and not being able to poo, but being able to get through the day with the unbelievable pain of endometriosis is worth it.
I don’t know what will happen when my next period rolls around. But if I’ve learnt anything from this first experience it’s that painkillers are necessary and important. I must take them regularly and on time. The side effects are horrible, but nothing compared to the pain that they take away.
Do you have to take regular pain medication? What do you struggle with the most? Feel free to vent your frustrations in the comments section down below – we could all do with a good rant!